Hi Fellow Phallos
Having been a member since 2017 and being hugely appreciative of being able to have such a great platform to lean upon for general information & advice I feel it is now time I offer something back.
My story in a nut shell :
I’ve always been plagued with feeling inadequate, I’m fairly average both flaccid and erect but at over 6ft and 115kg of muscle let’s just say that it doesn’t look too proportioned and hasn’t since the age of 13 (now 40).
Because of my frame I’ve always attracted what I guess to be either size queens, or women that assume I must be hung, they’ve dropped comments like, “I love rugby player build guys, they’re hung like donkeys” and “look at the size of your hands and feet, bet your cock is huge” blah blah, obviously after hearing that, boom! anxiety kicks in and it retracts so far in you need a drain plunger to suck the thing back out!
On the odd occasions I have got on with it, yes, you can bet your bottom dollar within a few days their mates are dropping little jokes, looking at the crotch and the lads will all be laughing.
I learnt to bring my self out of anxiety by thinking it could be smaller, saying to my self “I’m average” but as the years went and continue, I find my self cock and bulge watching and comparing images with my own tackle.
Anyway, I finally settled down with my wife who has always said she’s been happy but I had always suspected wouldn’t have complained for more as she did everything possible to shy away from looking at cocks or porn, talking about cocks past and present and playing with larger toys etc.
A couple of years ago I plucked up the courage and decided to have HA filler injections. Unfortunately, it turned out to be a pretty shit experience and it didn’t work, a very lazy doctor who couldn’t be bothered resulted in it being left back to square one but a good few thousand out of pocket.
Since then I’ve spent most of the time feeling sorry for my self and looking into alternatives such as PMMA (no uk doctors from what I’ve seen), Ellanse (Too new) as well as Lig & Fat transfer (Too risky). All of which were at the back of my mind but not too high on the agenda.
That was the case until on a recent kind of ultimatum of an argument I asked for the truth and In the heat of the moment she admitted that she feels bigger is better and would prefer it if I were bigger, I felt a sense of relief hearing the truth but still, after 20 years of marriage that hurt, it hurt even more knowing that nothing can really be done about it.
It did secure what I had always thought though, having missionary sex once every 4 to 6 weeks at a time for 20 years with no foreplay, oral any way and with a get it over and done with attitude can only mean there is “0” excitement and fulfilment for her.
Being left quite devastated by this I came to the conclusion that I may as well have another go at HA as it is probably the best option for hanging onto any self belief, and the misses providing it’s administered by a Dr that can spare me more than 10 minutes!
So, on that note I’m now gonna book my self in for as many ml of HA as possible in the next 3 weeks.
I will be updating with Before, after and Progress info and photos should anyone want to follow.
Wish me luck peeps!
FL: 4.5” 12cm
FG: 4” 10cm
EL: 6.5” 17cm
EG: 5” 13.5cm
Struggle to Fill a toilet roll flaccid