thanks for your valuable feedback. I am very self-conscious and don't find it easy to talk about it, especially since I thought this was a nightmare in my past but, before I had the implant inserted, I suffered from a condition called micro-penis. Please don't take this the wrong way, but my penis was not just small but all you could ever see was the head. Since I don't have a before picture (and only an after picture in its current "malformed" stage), all I can do is to show you a similar case. If you look here, you can see why I was so much looking forward to the implant and why I was so happy with it:
(See case PE1, bottom half of the page).
This is not exactly my result: My pre-op size was even smaller and my result after surgery was also a bit smaller than the result pictured, but it was a massive difference and I felt comfortable doing things I have never done before: sauna, sex with the lights on, showering at the gym, etc.
My fear is very simple: In terms of size, I don't want to go back to where I came from! I don't even care so much about the girth, but the length is important to me. And your man keeps talking about retraction now. This is not good! I do have to get my current situation fixed, because I am unable to have sex (see my previous posts). If I get the implant removed, as suggested by you, I will not ever get an infection, but I will also go back to the micro-penis. Stretching, pumping, etc. never did the trick in the past, I am afraid it won't help now. My alternative is to have Dr. Elist replace the broken implant with the new type, but I am hearing different things about it.
Please note that I am not concerned about how the implant feels. I have gotten used to the feel and, with the exception of my wife, no one else really touches my penis. I am more concerned about the sharp edges. Are they gone in the new model? My infection was a direct result of a the sharp tip (left side, where the two halves are stitched together). Dr. Elist tells me the new implant comes in one piece. Are there still sharp edges, though? If they are gone, I think it would be an option for me to at least retain my penis size. But if they are still there, I would rather suffer from a micro-penis than living with the fear of an infection coming back again and again. But both options are reallz shite!
You said that you had the implant removed because it was so detectable. I agree, as mine is very detectable as well. May I ask, did you have the newer or older version and, if so, do you know if there is a difference in terms of noticability?
My head tells me you are right, but my "wanting-to-be-fully-male-madness" tells me to try with the new implant so that I don't go back to the hell I came from. I am really in a slump now!
I have never told a person (with the exception of Dr. Elist, who noticed, of course!) that I had a micro-penis. Not even in an Internet forum. It is much easier to talk about a small penis. But I want you all to know where I am coming from. Darned if I do and darned if I don't!?!