I am of Italian and French heritage. I was married to an American Italian woman. We had great sex for a couple of years of marriage. She told me she loved my dick and it was big. After our first baby, our sex life went to.....ZERO! I was told by the female experts to wait and she will change and get sex drive back, she never did. Needless to say, after putting up with her alcoholism, chain smoking and no sex I said to my self fuck this shit I am out of here.
We got a divorce but some how we kept having sex for months afterwards??? It was better than when we were married. After a while, the excellent lawyers and the judicial system got the best of us and we truly finished seeing each other.
A few weeks later I went to see my kids and when I arrived, she went on to tell me with great pride that she just fucked this 17 year old boy (she was about 35 at the time) and how she had sex with him 5 times in one nite and that he had a bigger dick than mine. I was stupid enough to believe her and it felt like a knife was stuck in my heart.
A few years went by and I got into a relationship with a beautiful American Philippino girl. She loved sex and it was great for a few years. She wanted to get married and I told her form day one I do not want to be married ever again. As most of you know, most women want to change a man's mind.
One day she came back from a business trip, we normally have great sex when we do not see each other for a few days. This time it was different, she wanted to go to her house right ways. I said no, let's go to mine first. We got undressed and I could smell the smell of condoms on her (we never used them because she was on the pill) I pretended that I did not know. I put a condom on (she did not say anything, so I knew I was right) and I fucked her in every hole. then I went and washed carefully and I told her never to come back ever again. She cried and told me nothing had happened. Months later she told me she DID cheat on me and the other guy had a bigger dick.
This really put another dagger in my heart. I never thought I had a small penis. All the girls I went with never complained, only these two bitches did just to hurt me. Nevertheless, it started a war in my mind.
Now, I started looking for ways to enlarge my penis. I was at about 6 EL and about 4.85 EG...
I started looking for lengthening and girth enhancement, this is now 2006-2007. I called a few Dr's about FFT, Alloderm and Belladerm. At that time I thought Belladerm will be the best.
I contacted Dr. Rothenthal and he told me he will do length and girth for about $10k and he assured my I would get an inch of length and girth. When I asked him if this is erect or flaccid, he did not answer me straight and he said every one is different, so I decided not to go with it.
In 2009, I stumbled on Dr Elist and his implant. It sounded great because it is a sure girth enhancement. He also told me I can gain TWO inches of erect length (I have an email from his office with this claim)... I was very interested.
I wish I had found sites like this one then, I would have never done the implant.
I went to visit him and I thought if I do not like what I see, I will just fly back home.
The Silicone Implant
On or around Marsh of 2010, I went to see him in Beverly Hills. His office was not up to my standard but it was busy. He showed me the implant and he told me it is very easy to put in and there will be no problems what so ever If he takes out and things will back to normal. In the 20 minute in his office, he must have left the room three to four times! I was so tempted but something inside me kept saying get the fuck out of there. BUT, I decided to trust him. I looked straight in his eyes and I told him I am trusting him with my sexual, physical, mental and psychological life and I asked him not to fuck it up. He looked back at me and said no problem. At that point, I trusted him and told him to go ahead and do it as long as I do not loose any length at all, he concurred!
He drove me in his own car to do some blood work and EKG. Then he set up the surgery center for my operation. I felt that he was a good Dr to do all this for free (the driving around and the tests).
I showed him pix of my erect penis and I told him to make sure I do not loose any length, again he concurred!
I told him I wanted to see him before I was under the anesthesia to explain a few things to him. I went in the surgery center and a nice looking girl set me for the operation. I saw a big black man going in the center and I said what the fuck is he doing there, he looked under dressed for such a place (nothing to do with his color, I love all races). It turned out he was the anesthesiologist... I said oh fuck, he is going to kill me....
I sat on the table and he inserted a needle in my arm, it did not hurt at all so I thougt to my self this is a good start, he ain't bad after all. before I knew it, I was out and never saw the Dr.
I woke up two hours later, I felt great, no pain and no feeling sick or drowsy. So the anesthesiologist was not bad after all, he was great.
The Dr. checked my dick and he said it looks great. I asked him what the fuck is this drain bulb doing sticking out of my side, he said do not worry about it I will take out in a few days...ME?
He drove me to my hotel that he paid for, and checked me in. I felt good and happy so far.
I spent one nite there, had chinese food and felt tired and went to sleep.
Next day I walked to his office about two miles for a check up. I did not believe I can walk and not feel any pain, just some discomfort.
He checked my wrapped penis and he said it looked great. The glans were twisted to the right from my point of view, I asked him why, he said do not worry about it. He took some measurements and he said I am all good to go home.
I took a flight home that afternoon. I did go thru the body scan and had no problem (I never do that again, I do not believe it is safe if you fly as much as I do!).
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